Evening Everyone
So things seem to be getting a lot worse over this past week or so, I don't even know why! Im feeling so much more sad that I did this time last week! I just wish I had an answer... I saw E my CAMHS worker today, the way she described it was that sometimes there isn't a reason for my low moods and that they just come randomly, fair enough but still Im a person who needs to have control over everything, I'd at least like to know why im feeling this way- surely I deserve that?
On Thursday my suicidal thoughts returned, I didn't know what to do or who to turn to but I forced myself into College, surely having a distraction would help right? I was worried in particular that Bear would pick up on my mood and want to speak to me outside, thank god he didn't so I was in the clear!
Emma x
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